Mabon 2019!

Mabon, or the Autumnal Equinox, falls on September 23rd. Mabon is a very significant holiday for different Pagan groups, and overall it is a great way to begin the fall season.

Various groups celebrate Mabon under different names, but many of the celebrations follow the same purpose – to celebrate the current year’s harvest and to take time to plan for the upcoming winter and spring seasons.

To me, Mabon is the most powerful of holidays for manifesting, for you are bringing together all the experiences of the last 12 months and focusing that energy into energy into bring positive things into your life.

Mabon is first and foremost about Gratitude. For thousands of years (and still in many places around this world), harvest time signified whether you would have a chance to survive the upcoming winter and early spring months.

While food supply is not currently an immediate challenge for most of us, this holiday is still relevant as an opportunity to explore our experiences throughout the last 12 months, how those experiences have helped us grow, and provide an opportunity to share our growth and our accomplishments.

Basically, this is the one night of the year where bragging about how great you are is actually beneficial to you. This positive energy you bring to the table will assist with manifesting that which is in your highest and best good for the next 12 months.

On a cautionary note, this is also about transparency. You may very well have a different viewpoint or perspective about events that transpired from others, but this is not the time or place to state falsehoods or fabrications to try to impress others. The energetic difference between lies and truth is quite significant and lying will only manifest new lessons for you to learn through the next year, instead of benefits to you.

Some examples of experiences to share could include life events such as career changes, income increases, people who have entered or exited your life, home environment changes, deaths of family or friends, etc. Events that touched you emotionally, situations that caused you to contemplate who you are, what you are doing with your life, or opportunities that provided a realization that change needed to happen “now” and you were finally in a place to accept that change – all are important events that need to be celebrated.

Other examples include the completion of tasks or goals that allowed you to move forward on your goals, the checking of boxes on your list, as we say.

Once you have thought about this, write down these things. Select a few to share over the bonfire with those in your group and then set the paper aside.

Now, let’s look at planning for the next 12 months. It used to be the planning was for survival through the winter months into spring. Planning on how to take the harvest and make the most of it so that everyone in your group would survive and not starve to death.

Nowadays we can take this planning idea, and shift it to the idea of manifesting that which is in our highest and best good. This takes some self reflection if you are not doing this on a regular basis.

Take some time during the day to meditate on where you are spiritually, energetically, physically, mentally, and emotionally and see where you would LIKE to be. Maybe you are fine with where you are in each of these places, but most likely there is some aspect of your life you would like to change. Maybe an area you perceive a lack in and want to improve or maybe you just don’t know what to do, but you know that something has got to change.

Take a piece of paper and start writing. Allow your heart’s desire to flow up through you energetically and allow that energy to pass onto the paper. Don’t worry about it being “perfect” or grammatically correct. The only person seeing this is you and it is going to go into the bonfire tonight, so the only thing important is that you are allowing what is truly important to you to flow through you. This energy will imprint into the paper and when you burn it in the bonfire tonight, the energy will be released to help shape and make changes to your life. Manifestation in action!

Focus, during this time, on that of which you dream, of your true inner desires (not what others have told you that you want), and offer those desires to the Creator. By doing this, you are surrendering your personal will to the Creator and acknowledging that all things come from the Creator. Control is merely an illusion. Write these down on a piece of paper as well.

When you share your heart’s desires with the Creator, regardless of how silly and insignificant, or how impossible your desire may seem to be, this act of surrender provides your High Self, your Guides and Angels, and the Creator the opportunity to assist us with healing, with shifting, and with the changes needed to bring our heart’s true desires into our life.

This is, in my opinion, the most important energetic gift you can give to yourself. When the thoughts or ideas which is so important to yourself that you have locked them away, you repressed all in any and every way, and now you allow these things to surface to your conscious state, miracles can happen overnight or even in the blink of an eye.

Manifestation is hard for many people to understand, and harder still to enact, but true manifestation is driven by your emotions. Not wild emotions, not negative emotions, but authentic and balanced emotions based in love – not fear!

So on this night of celebration, allow the differing energetics to serve your highest and best good by releasing the illusion of control, by acknowledging your challenges and achievements, and by opening up to your heart’s desires.

Steps to follow/complete:
Once you have written these two different lists down of paper, at dusk begin to (safely) build your bonfire. Laugh and share time and stories with those in your circle as the fire develops. Use this time wisely to develop your community and good will amongst your peers.

Once the fire is developed and everyone can rest or sit down, whoever wants to go first will start the circle. Let that person stand up and share their “harvest” events. Then, when they have shared what they choose, they will then walk to the fire and give the gift of their experiences to the flames to burn.

When the paper is burnt up, the energy of gratitude will be released.

Next, the person will take their second piece of paper, with their heart’s desires written on it, and offer that to the flames as well. The energy released from the first piece of paper will blend with the energy of the heart’s desires and be used to manifest that person’s highest and best good. The individual should continue standing in front of the fire until he or she feels that they have absorbed all the positive energy returned to them.

Once that person has sat down, the next person will stand up and do their sharing and burning of their papers. Again, they will wait for the energy to be absorbed before they sit down. Repeat this until everyone has had their turn in front of the fire.

The Abyss, or Spiritual Depression

You have spoken of staring into the Abyss, but have you truly looked within it?  Spent hours looking into the Abyss that exists within you and seeing every single character flaw you possess?  Seeing all the lost opportunities and wasted opportunities because of something you did which was caused by an insecurity you possessed?  How about looking at the choices you thought were “right” or “correct” for you at the time, which only in time revealed to you instead all the things that were wrong about you? Spiritual depression is one of the paths we each take to reach the Abyss.

I do this regularly – the Angelics make me do this for my highest and best good.  Not to punish, not to humiliate, not to wreak havoc upon that which exists as “me”, but instead to look at, to analyze, to see how I could have chosen differently, to reflect upon, and mostly, to heal those wounds that exist within me.

If I enter the Abyss and stay too long, I call this spiritual depression the “Dark Night of the Soul”.  It is not necessarily a choice to “stay too long”, but rather I am held there in that state of exposure – held in a state of almost suspension where I am given time to really look at what I truly believe down to my Core.

Every significant spiritual step forward I have taken has been prompted by a spiritual depression episode.  I don’t become suicidal, but I do become very dark energetically as all my focus is internalized on my frailty and flows.  Obsessed might be a good word for it, except that every single thing in my life is reviewed, judged, discerned, and finally determined if it is to stay or go. 

People have also left as a result of my work in the Abyss – sometimes because my vibration shifts too high for them to be comfortable with me, so they leave…and sometimes because I realize that they are not in alignment with me and what I wish to become.

When you stare into the Abyss – what do you see? 

It is a place that reflects fears and smashed dreams and idle thoughts of fancy and then shows you the reflection of who you are.  Multiple people I have worked with over the years wonder at my humility, my abject refusal to claim attention or acclaim for what I do.  Partially that is because I am an introvert and am not comfortable in the spot light or being around lots of people, and partially it is because of my experiences within the Abyss. 

I know who and what I am, and I cannot claim something that I do not do.  The change I bring into other people’s lives, the healings they experience, the knowledge shared with them is not me, it is not mine.  I merely channel that information/energy/healing to them.  They are the ones who bear the responsibility of what they do when I finish doing my thing.

I have looked into the Abyss and seen what I could become – and that has scared me.  I don’t want to become that person ever, for I have also seen it echoed in a parallel lifetime and I don’t like who I am in that lifetime.

You may think you are challenging or difficult or unworthy or mean or whatever negative term you use inside your head.  We are each these things – it is part of being human and it is a lesson for each of us to grow past that childish mindset and see others for who they truly are and not what we project at them. 

Last night I voluntarily entered the Abyss, for I could feel spiritual depression looming.  This is good – it is an opportunity for me to demand transparency and honesty, learning and growth, and healing from myself.  And the end result is always the same when I learn from these moments – Love.

Love is all that matters in this world.  I say that a lot, because it really is true.  Love of all kinds, all natures, with all kinds of people, animals, and aspects of this reality.  When we choose to love, we are choosing an aspect of ourselves that lifts us up away from cruelty and barbarity into a place of reason and rationality.  Clarity and discernment instead of fear and ignorance, for the more we learn about ourselves and how we work inside, the better we are able to understand the motivations and agendas of other humans.

I have not always chosen love or to be in a place of love.  I would have tossed some of the people I work with now to the curb a long time ago if I was still unable to see how their wounds drive them to self-destructive acts.  I give them the safe place to be themselves and a place to unburden their fears and worries.  I give to them what the Angelics and Guides have given to me, because very few people ever experience what I experience regularly.  How can I do less?  I accept myself; how can I not accept others for the fragile creatures we are?

The most vicious, ugly person can be redeemed – if they want to be.  I cannot make anyone do that – they have to want to do that.  I can hold their hand while we look into the abyss together, for I am not afraid of it, and that gives them strength.

When I stare into the Abyss, I see me.  I see all versions of me – good, bad, ignorant, wise, silly, vicious, beautiful and ugly.  I choose what I wish to be, I choose the aspects I want to heal and those I want to grow.

In the end, I know when I am done with the Abyss because I choose to lift myself away from spiritual depression and suicidal thoughts and instead, I embrace what I have become and what I want to be.

It takes courage and internal fortitude to own yourself – your positives and negatives.  I understand your pain, very well.  I go into the abyss gladly because when I emerge, I am better for it.  But in the beginning, it was not easy at all.  I was filled with shame and horror and felt I did not deserve anything of happiness because of what a weak and horrible person I was.  And then I forgave myself for being human and I slowly forgave those who hurt me deliberately, and then slowly worked on forgiving those who hurt me carelessly.

What do you see when you stare into the Abyss?

Welcome to the First 2019 Mother Earth Planetary Shift

And again, it is coinciding with Mercury in Retrograde. Yay us!

I admit, I have been a slacker on writing this blog. Last year’s combo was a massive trial for everyone sensitive on this planet and having to break it to people that they would be experiencing similar sensations and trials and tribulations again made me cringe.

However, instead of focusing on what the Planetary Shift will be doing to you (hint – 2nd and 4th chakra issues will be arising!), I am going to focus on how the combination of MiR and the PS can assist with releasing deep seated ideas and give you an exercise or two to help you shift in alignment with these two powerful energies.

Let’s look at the 2nd chakra first. The 2nd chakra houses all our ideas of society and our place within. We keep all our ideas about relationships, sexual identity, and sexuality trapped in there as well. Hierarchy within the family unit and the roles we hold in society are unconscious programs running too.

Basically, it’s a massive goulash of messed up ideas, emotions, beliefs, and patterns of behaviors that started accumulating when you were about 8 years old. And needless to say, not too many 8 year olds understand the complexity of the world we live in, much less have the emotional maturity and intellectual discernment capable of making mindful decisions.

So all that plus is massed within our 2nd chakra. Throw into that mess all the messed up relationships and ideas about people we knew/know and there is plenty to keep any one individual busy doing healing work on a daily basis for a year.

Let me give you an example from my repertoire of experiences.

As humans, our capacity for love is magnificent and incredible. And as a human, we very often don’t consider why we love someone. We certainly don’t consider capability when we love someone – we “just do” and it is only down the road when we get to know that person that we realize our personalities do not mesh well together.

It does not mean the love was “wrong” – it just means that the person is not a good fit for our personal path. We can still have them in our life – just not in the capacity we wanted them to be. And thus begins the trials and tribulations of the heart, for all too often, when they don’t fit into the box they think they ought to – or the one we think they ought to – we cut them out, drop them to the curb, and repress their memory deep within us.

This is just one instance, just one person. One relationship experience that has now encapsulated a variety of emotions, a number of roles for both you and the other person, and then tie in the grief of releasing all hopes and expectations for that relationship. Finishing all that up is the repression of the memory of that person within so that it becomes an unconscious program running in our background. We have not learned from it because we repressed the relationship, so we will repeat the lesson by bringing in person after person who reminds us of the one repressed.

And so we begin the string of bad relationships that will taint that aspect of our life – until we stop, pull that individual/relationship out of our memory, heal it, and release it.

Ugh – stop, I can hear the protestations without you opening your mouth! NO, this is NOT going to be fun or pretty. Yes, this is a shit storm alert! BUT do you want to KEEP doing this? Do you want to keep sabotaging your friendships and romantic relationships because of the hurt you have bottled up inside you?

I sure as heck don’t! And yes, to answer the question, I have spent a number of days within the last week processing my own pain. I have had wonderful support from a couple of friends who were able to just love me and let me know that they value me and that I deserve to allow myself to heal.

To Heal. This is the goal. To HEAL. Not to find someone ‘new’ to have a relationship with, but to heal and grow and become more, to travel down my path a little further, to reach within and release the Darkness and bring more Light within me.

And I cannot do that when I hold onto people.

This is not easy. We hold so much grief within us in so many ways and it hurts us to pull it out. But you don’t have to live through the relationship again to release it. You just have to be willing to let it go. And that is the second hard part of the process.

You have to let go of the hope you have been harboring within you that somehow this person, this relationship is going to have a magical experience and all will be wonderful and beautiful and you will have your happy ever after.

The only happy ever after you are going to have is you healing and releasing and developing a deeper and stronger capacity to love others more unconditionally. Tough talk time, but such as it is.

So pull up your big person undies and let’s suck it up and do the exercise.

First, I want you to get into a sitting position, preferable on a chair as you will be having arm movement and need it unrestricted.

Start with your hands in your lap and focus on long, slow, deep breaths in and out of your belly. Allow yourself to slide into a light meditative state.

As your breathing lengthens, allow your hands to naturally drop to your sides.

After they have dropped, allow yourself to feel a large ball of pink light settle over your head, over your crown chakra. Breathe deeply, allowing your breaths to slow even more.

Feel that pink ball expand and slowly encompass your entire body, stretching and covering you with each breath you take.

Once it has fully covered you, focus your attention on your hands, hanging limply at your side.

Now feel a ball of gold and white energy forming in your crown chakra. With each breath, that ball of gold and white energy is going to stretch and grow and flow through your Core, through each chakra, your meridians, and your auric layers.

The combination of the pink energy and the gold and white energies is going to provide you with healing, buffering, knowledge, and wisdom to move forward to the next step.

Feel again your hands hanging limply by your side. Call upon your High Self to come forward and help you. Call upon the Creator to send energy to you and allow yourself to Receive.

Now feel the energy of the Creator moving through your heart chakra, flowing down your arms to your hands. Feel the energy of the Creator stretch your hands out and the energy flow out through your finger tips.

Allow your hands and arms to raise up until the palms meet each other over your head.

Breathe deeply, allowing the energy flow through you organically.

You will feel the directive to allow your hands to drop down in front of you, palms together, until they come to rest in front of your stomach.

Allow your hands to open and come to rest on top of your belly, over the 2nd chakra.

With every breath you take, feel the energy of the Creator flow from your heart, through your arms, and from your hands into the 2nd chakra.

Give yourself permission to release and heal any and all wounds you carry within you.

Give your High Self permission to lift from you those wounds that no longer are serving your Highest and Best Good.

Allow yourself to fill with Light.

And repeat until the time it is indicated your session is done. If you are not accustomed to doing energy work, allow yourself a half hour of this work until you get accustomed to the after effects.

After effects may include emotional exhaustion, crying, anger, the desire to throw things, and finally the acceptance that you deserve way more than holding onto this old nonsense.

Seriously – I derived this list from personal experience. Your personal emotional process may include other states of emotion. Don’t judge – just allow yourself to process and release as much as you can, each time you do the exercise.

Should you decide you feel “nothing”, please note that for some deeply held wounds, issues, and beliefs multiple sessions may be required to dislodge. Give yourself this gift!

Now for the 4th chakra, we have a mantra for you to practice for the next 21 days. The mantra can be stated before, during, and after the 2nd chakra healing exercise, or you can do it in a separate session.

Negativity now vanishes completely from my life. I am safe and everything is in alignment with my Highest and Best Good. I am Loved.

For those who are unfamiliar with mantras, mantras are used to help retrain the mind and thought processes while assisting your energy system to release and heal wounds. At least, in my world this is what they do.

Why does it work? Because we are spiritual beings in a human form that is driven by psychology. For the human mind to change, it must do something different for 21 days, every day, which allows the brain to be reprogrammed.

So, the mantra will be done daily and the 2nd chakra exercise will be done daily and at the end of this time Mercury will be almost out of Retrograde but you will have 3 more weeks of the Earth Mother Planetary Shift. Keep going and do as much as you can while these energies are available to you!

One last exercise – crying can be such a healing experience. Not pretty, artful crying, but crying where you are feeling everything in your lower stomach, in the 2nd chakra. When you tone, your body is able to shift and release vibrations that are trapped within its energy system. When you cry through your 2nd chakra, those are the moments of deep release where it is the noise that is important – not the amount of tears flowing.

When you can give yourself the opportunity to howl, to release trapped energies via your body’s organic flow, you may be quite surprised at how good you feel the next day.

As always, drink tons and tons of water as you are going through the shift! Blessings to you!


Our knowledge of the celebration of Imbolc comes largely from stories and information passed down first through families and eventually transferred over to the Internet. The truth is, once Christianity took hold in Ireland, much of what might have been part of the rituals related to Imbolc were probably lost, because early Christians had a thirst for killing people who did not conform to their beliefs and ideas. So – just as many other forms of non-Christian beliefs were lost, much was lost for Imbolc.

According to the Oxford Dictionary, Imbolc or Candlemas is defined as “A Christian festival held on 2 February to commemorate the purification of the Virgin Mary (after childbirth, according to Jewish law) and the presentation of Christ in the Temple. Candles were traditionally blessed at this festival.”

Taken over and subverted by Catholicism and relegated to become the bland “St. Brigid’s Day”, much of what Imbolc was celebrated for was decimated. Such is the way of the conqueror. However, in today’s world, many people have returned to the idea of a celebration during the middle of winter and with the Internet’s assistance, Imbolc has become the Light within the Darkness again.

Imbolc is a celebration of the end of winter, and a celebration to the Light half of the year. The Gaels had an impressive understanding of the moon cycles and their year was divided into a time of darkness (rest and recovery) and a time of Light (breeding, growth, and a return to activity). 
Samhain at the end of October was the beginning of their new year and the start of Darkness. Imbolc is the return of Light.

While we don’t have the information lost over the last millennium regarding this holiday, we can each still celebrate the basic ideas behind this moon cycle. Winter is departing, and every day a couple more minute of sunlight benefit the Earth. You can look forward to warmer temperatures returning, animals begin their breeding cycles, and plants in your yard are starting to poke their heads out of the ground. What’s not to celebrate?

When I look at Imbolc from a spiritual perspective, I see the endless possibilities for healing and growth. We have come through the hardest part of today’s US culture – we have survived the onslaught of the winter holidays. Starting with Halloween and ending with the New Year celebration, every month brings forth opportunity to spend time with family and friends. While for many this may be cause for joyful reflection, for many more this is a time of dread, a series of events that must be gotten through, gotten over, to just make it to January when you can be assured of some quiet time to yourself as everyone drops away as there is no longer a need to pretend.

I am asked the question, “Why do I feel alone after New Year’s?”

The simple answer is that the energy of obligation or duty is no longer driving certain people in your life to include you – or to berate you, depending upon your perspective. I look at this time of the year as a blessing, for it is now time to cleanse and begin anew.

Many people being New Year’s resolutions, thinking a goal will help them make the changes that they feel they need to make during the year. Many times those resolutions are based off things they think are wrong with themselves, that they are deficient in, that they need to “fix”.

From a spiritual perspective, that kind of self-hatred is bound to fail as your High Self wants you to learn to love yourself – not fix what is “wrong” with you. I suggest that we adopt the perspective of self-love and apply it to Imbolc. Imbolc could easily adapt and be the symbolic time of healing and growth to take you on the path to become your authentic you.

By using the traditional symbols of candle and flame, you have the added bonus of include your neighboring Fire Elementals in this return to balance, a return to your essential self, and the promise of a new beginning. So, what can you do to celebrate Imbolc quietly in your own home?

Years ago, a friend of mine took me to my first Imbolc celebration. It was not what I expected and the energy was not what I thought it would be, so I never returned to that pagan enclave, however, I did adopt the candle ritual and use that as a part of my healing and growth process.

Obtain a tall 7-day glass candle. You can find them even at your local grocery store. Make sure it is one of the plain ones as you are going to decorate it yourself. If you are a Reiki practitioner, I suggest permeating the candle with Reiki to raise its vibration and cleanse it of that which is not in your highest and best good.

Then, spend a little while in reflection and rumination. What do you want to do with your life? What do you want to achieve this year? What goal’s have you put off or what challenges do you foresee for which you will need strength and purpose? There are many ways to view your potential and you need to chop that down into bite sized pieces. This is not to set yourself up for failure – this exercise is to establish and manifest the energy to reach these goals for yourself.

Last year, my goals were to return to North Carolina and be with my friends and family after being gone for almost 5 years. I needed a certain amount of money to come in, I needed a place to stay, I needed a vehicle of my own to even begin the process. Within two months, all these things were manifested with people even coming forward – unasked – to offer assistance. 

The Universe WILL provide when you not only know what you want, but know that what you want is also in your Path.

Now, once you have a few bite sized pieces to work with, it is time to get creative! Speaking as someone who has zero real world creativity, this next step is not to intimidate you at all! This is for you – your energy is going into your creativity to manifest your highest and best good – so don’t worry what it will look like to ANYONE ELSE!

Start with covering your candle with plain paper. You could use a piece of printer paper, cut to size. Or even kitchen paper if you have that on hand. Don’t put it on the candle yet! Decide how you are going to decorate your candle.

The very first candle I created years ago was covered in different colored pieces of crinkled-up wrapping tissues. Then, I took a variety of small crystals, cleansed them, and imbued them with the energy I wanted to happen during that year. I then used wire and wrapped the tissue-wrapped candle with my crystals. I was very pleased with it and with the crystals that had volunteered to do this work with me.

When we went to the ceremony, my candle stood out alone and strange from the others, but it was perfect for me and the vibration it emanated was perfect for me, so what else did I need?

Their candles were wrapped with taped pictures from magazines – like a vision board. That is what they needed and that was absolutely great for them! This is YOUR candle – you need to make it work for you!

So start your preparations now. Go purchase your candle, meditate on what you want to achieve, and then decorate the candle as you like it. Then – and this is the important step – meditate with the candle every day before Imbolc. Spend at the very least a few minutes focusing on what you want to achieve, what you want to shift, how you want to heal, and how you want to grow. Ask your High Self to join you in this project – for your High Self knows exactly what is needed for you to be living the life you were designed to live!

I want to add something I think is very important. It is vital that you are honest with yourself when you are focusing on what you want. If you are harboring self-defeating emotions, then that is what you need to focus on healing first. Do not set yourself up for disappointment by creating non-achievable scenarios – that is harmful to you. Work on doing what you need to do first and then grow from there!

Then, after sunset on Imbolc, take a few moments to get prepared. Make sure you have a safe place to light your candle and leave it alone, for it needs to burn for the entire time it has wax. Maybe you will leave it on a fire-proof counter. Maybe you will get a decorative bowl and put some sand inside to set the candle on. Regardless of your choice – have your fire-safe place set up before you begin the celebration.

Once everything is prepared, it is time to quiet and focus your thoughts, again focusing on your desire for your High Self to assist you with returning to your essential place of authenticity, a place of healing and growth, and utilize the energy of gratitude to facilitate the manifestation of these energies to help you achieve the wonderful changes you will experience. Gratitude is never a wasted emotion.

Say whatever words or prayer you think appropriate as you light the candle, and then spend several minutes with it, sharing the energy of gratitude and manifestation with the candle. Then, when you are done, leave the candle in its fire-proof location and return to your daily activities.

If you are doing this as a group event, think about what you want to say out loud in front of everyone. You don’t need to share your every detail of every intimate thought and desire with everyone. This is your personal manifestation moment, so you want to be comfortable with your spoken declarative statement as you light the candle.

Make sure every day you spend some time with the candle while it burns – sharing the energy of gratitude and manifestation with it. Emotion creates energy and energy creates intention and intention is the energy behind manifestation.

You may find that you need to dump a little of the wax here and there to keep the wick vital, depending upon the candle body material. Please be careful as the glass will be hot and spilled wax is messy.

Once the candle is completely burned it is time to complete the manifestation process. I always remove my crystals I have wrapped around the candle at this stage and set them aside to include in my daily meditations. If you have included something tangible you want to keep with you like crystals or a necklace, etc., remove that now.

Now wrap your candle in 2 or three paper bags, then finish with a plastic grocery or garbage bag. Get some sort of hammer, some safety goggles if you have them, and take everything outside. Look around your yard – if you have one – and ask to be shown where the perfect spot will be to bury your candle. You will need to dig a hole deep enough to cover all the candle and the paper bags.

If you are in a place where the ground is still frozen or you live in an apartment setting, skip this step.

Once outside with the wrapped candle, hammer, and safety goggles, find a solid place and get into a light meditative state. Reiterate one last time what you wish to manifest with the energy from this candle and hold that energy in your heart and mind. Now, place the wrapped candle on the solid surface and pound the candle until it is only tiny, tiny pieces.

It is very important you follow safety procedures while doing this. Having wrapped the candle in multiple layers of paper bag will assist with keeping dust and shards from flying about, but you can never be too careful with your eyes! The plastic bag should keep all the pieces in one location as the paper bags may indeed be torn by the jagged pieces of glass.

Once you have destroyed the candle and released the energy of manifestation, it is time to bury that candle in the ground. If you don’t have a place to bury it, ask for your High Self to release all the energy within the glass container and release it now to the Universe. Your High Self will make sure that it is released as appropriate for you.

Now you can safely place it inside your garbage can. For those who will plant it in your yard, it will be your choice if you wish to leave it in the ground once the year has passed or if you wish to dig it up and dispose of it in the garbage can at that point. The energy will have been released, so its purpose will be fulfilled and there will be no negative ramifications if you should.

Imbolc is a time of promise, an opportunity to return to your true state of being. I hope you find this exercise useful and I wish for you to receive your blessings throughout the year.

Why Seeing a Healing Practitioner May Help!

Have you ever wondered why, after learning how to use a healing modality, you never seem to get the results that other people rave about?  Do you then feel as if you failed?  That maybe you are not “good enough” to do this work?  Maybe you were so disappointed that you gave up trying to help yourself.

What if I told you that you did not fail and you were not deficient in any way?  The truth is, there are modalities that are effective but the vast majority of them are not going to do the work you want them to do because you are resisting the healing.

Did you immediately recoil from reading that last sentence?

Your wounds inside need healing.  Has your physical state reached the point where you are being told to see a doctor?  But Western Medicine has failed you so far if you continue to worsen. But that’s the point of Western Medicine, isn’t it?  It doesn’t want to heal the actual wounds inside of you – they just want to throw a pill of some kind at you and keep you coming back for more.

Or maybe you can feel things starting to happen inside of you and you know that you have to deal with this now – not in one or even two years down the road.  Now.

That is why you turned to alternative modalities like energy work.  Yet, that doesn’t seem to be working either, does it?  What is wrong with you?

Stop.  I mean it – just stop.  You are an extremely complex being and inside you are carrying within emotional wounds, psychological wounds, and energy imbalances that are all affecting your physical form.  Yes, the desire is there to get better and your lack of success does not mean you chose the incorrect modality to learn.

It means that your issues are much more complex than you want to realize and you need to get some outside help.  Perhaps temporary outside help or perhaps long-term help is needed.  Or, if you are getting that help already, maybe you need to switch healing practitioners to find one who can deal effectively with your issues.

Ah, I feel that resistance again.  Why is the resistance there?  Did you for a class which was supposed to cure and heal all ills?  Have you paid someone to help you yet the results were less than stellar?  Do you just not believe that all this woo-woo stuff is real?

Remember – the resistance inside of you is just one indicator that you are COMPLEX.  Respect your complexity.  And relax – it is quite possible to heal yourself if you dig in and learn all you need to know about your energy system, and it is quite possible to find a reputable healing modality practitioner to do the work with.

By trimming down your list of potential healing practitioners with a couple of steps, you will be able to look at your choices more clearly.  We will cover those steps further in this blog.

Let’s get back to why you might need to see a healing practitioner first.  Do any of these apply to you?

  • Have you tried different ways to help yourself, yet nothing seems to be “the one way”?
  • Did you connect beautifully with your High Self in one session and do amazing work, yet subsequent sessions were ineffective?
  • Do you feel as if you cannot connect emotionally with your inner self on a regular – DAILY – basis?
  • Do you feel as if you are spinning on a hamster wheel day after day, trying this and trying that, but feeling as if you are not getting any closer to healing yourself all the while your frustration builds?

Before you start your personal sessions, do you ask yourself any of the questions below? Or do you just dive in?

  1. Are you ready emotionally to address the wound/s inside you?
  2. Are you ready to embrace the changes that need to take place for the work to be effective on a long-term basis?
  3. Is it in your Highest and Best Good to heal this wound at this time?
  4. Are there any outside influences that are preventing your healing at this time?
  5. Is there something you need to do first before you can address the wound you believe is most important?

In my experience facilitating healing experiences, there are several factors that need to be taken into account.

  1. The wound you perceive is only the tip of the iceberg.  You may be one of the few who are truly self-aware enough to know when a particular wound was created, but for many they repress the truth, for it is uncomfortable and inconvenient.
  2. Change must take place for the healing to be effective.  If you perceive your issue to be a lack of boundaries and together we discover this was because of the way your family treated you, are you prepared to deal with that?It doesn’t mean you have to confront them during your healing process, but you will have to effect immediate changes if your healing work is to not be rejected. And they may resist this change in you.  Are you mentally prepared to move forward emotionally, mentally, and physically in a way that will protect yourself, respect yourself, and build a healthy self-esteem – even if the healing requires you to curtail contact with your family members??
  3. Your High Self loves you very much.  And if your High Self perceives that what you are trying to do is going to traumatize you in some way, it will try to protect you in ways allowed.  Sometimes that means you sit and spin – and sometimes that sitting and spinning will last a long time.  All as a means to get you to examine this situation for what is in your Highest and Best Good.
  4. Our wounds are almost always created because of something that happened to us – and many times that “something” was done by a family member or someone we trusted, someone we loved or someone we thought loved us.In many cases, that same individual placed energetic devices inside of you (unknowingly on both sides, of course) that when you attempt to heal are instead triggered and circumvent or even entirely block your attempts to heal.

    Everyone has implants or constructs that distract you from healing.  You might have Akashic Contracts in place that need to be resolved before you can move forward with healing.  You may have taken vows in this or another lifetime that are now preventing you from obtaining that state of being you wish you could live in.  You yourself may have placed energetic blockages within your energy system to prevent you from seeing the Truth, because you were hurting then.  And you are still hurting now.

    These are just a few ways things may block your healing process. If you don’t have the knowledge base to recognize and process these things, it is no wonder you feel stuck.  One class – or even 5 classes – are not necessarily going to provide you with all that you need to move forward to heal yourself.  Because you are a complex individual.

  5. It could be that there are other wounds that will need to be addressed before you get to the “big wound” you perceive.  Are you open to that or do you think you have to deal with this big wound before you can deal with anything else?In my experience, the big wounds need to be dealt with slowly and carefully.  Starting to heal your other issues will provide a stronger, healthier basis for you to grow and heal on.  Otherwise, you could easily traumatize yourself further.

    NOTE: any healing practitioner who does not take this potential trauma into account is not someone you should be seeing.

Healing may seem to be an illusive goal to you.  Seeing an effective Healing Practitioner may be what you need to do to at least gain ground and gain understanding of ways you can help yourself.

But what if you have already done that?  What if you spent a large amount of money working with someone, but have not seen any changes?  Well, it is unfortunate, but that does happen because not every practitioner is meant to work with every person needing healing work.

So this is where brutal honesty has to come into play.

  1. Did you work with someone because they were referred to you? (Referrals are great, just keep in mind everyone is different and results vary.)
  2. Did you work with a practitioner because you did not know anyone else and you did not want to do research? (This is sad because there are always tons out there.)
  3. When you met them, did you have any reaction (emotional, physical, etc.) to them?(If you had a negative reaction, why did you continue the session?) 
  4. Did you ask them any of these questions(This list covers so many different things, but don’t beat yourself up if you didn’t.  The previous two questions are the key ones.)

The truth is, very few people can facilitate their own healing on a regular basis.  This does not meant that people are incapable of healing on their own; indeed, your High Self may have gifted you with spontaneous moments of healing or of epiphanies that led to healing moments already.

Most practitioners I know work with a peer or student to facilitate their own healing work.  Why?  Healing work is just like counseling or therapy.  You need to be addressing issues on a regular basis or human nature takes over and you ignore them.  And when you are peeking or peering or diving into your wounds and issues by yourself, it is very easy to be distracted or resistant to the work.  Why?  Because it hurts!  Thus, progress is slow because you are expecting to feel pain and hurt, and thus you do.

Working with a healing practitioner who is in alignment with you, who is ethical, and who values your highest and best good is going to produce more effective healing sessions they take from you the thinking part of the process.  They are going to be listening to and working with your High Self.  No, I cannot say these sessions are going to be fun or short-term.

I can say that you will begin to experience the changes appropriate for you, as long as you work with transparency and honesty with your Healing Practitioner. And long-term, that is all any of us really desires.

Working with someone allows you to relax deeply on the table or in the chair.  You can “let them drive” and know that this conscientious person cares about you and that your discomfort will be minimal and the healing benefits will be there.  The appropriate person will know how to help you release internal blocks of resistance and will work to make sure your needs are addressed.

The vast majority of people who land in the healing practitioner world are people who were hurt and sought out help to heal themselves.  Now they want to help others.  This is a very positive indicator.

And you have the right to choose someone who is in alignment with your Highest and Best Good.  Respect your intuition and you will be guided to working with the correct individual and then the healing will progress!


A Warning…

I am seeing an uptick in cases regarding a particular topic and I feel now might be a good time to write about it.  There are lots of movies out there, as well as tons of books, comics, and other forms of media that are strictly fictionalized stories about demons, possession, witchcraft, etc.  These forms of entertainment have captured a particular aspect of the populations attention – mainly that of the younger people who are drawn to the exotic and unknown and even the idea of danger.  Unfortunately, this segment of humans has not yet learned how to discriminate between entertainment and accurate information.

The sad thing is, many of the writers of these stories do half-ass research on the internet to prepare their material and thus that really does compound the problem, because young people don’t understand that Trust must be EARNED – not just given.  This is because of the way they are raised, for the most part, that anyone in authority MUST know what they are doing.  Even the cynical children who think they know it all are still unconsciously following their programming, and are just absorbing whatever is projected into their minds.

The more obsessed ones will even go so far as to research information without realizing that 20 years ago the internet did not exist.  The information so easily obtained on the internet is not coming from instruction manuals that have been locked up within sacred institutions NOR are they coming from experienced individuals.  Simply because this information is sacred to whichever side of the equation and it is not likely to be published to the public because of that sacredness.  You had to earn your place to learn anything and so the information on the internet is 99.9% made up stuff that people felt “guided” to share with others.

So this gullible segment of the population are swallowing the information left and right without realizing that what they read on the internet or a book published in the last 20 years was most likely created for amusement or to make money.  NOT to pass along sacred rituals because there is danger inherent within all forms and sides of the paranormal and the occult.

So, for those who have made it this far into my rant, LOL, here is the warning.  Teach your children – regardless of age – to NOT DO the following, regardless of whether they believe whatever is happening is real or not.

  1.  Do NOT ever agree to be a channel for someone.  If that person wants someone to channel for them, they are not intending anything good for that person.  Otherwise they would channel the energy, being, etc. by their self!!!  Why would anyone share an honor, privilege, gift etc. with anyone else when they could get all the glory for themselves?
  2. Do NOT ever agree to any form of binding.  The Angelics and Light beings do not require bindings to work with individuals and if someone wants you to bind your energy to a demon, higher power, master, etc. then realize that if this being was so almighty powerful they would not need to have anyone (or anything else’s) energy.
  3. Do NOT take vows that have you agree to allow or assist any higher power etc. to use your body, your mind, or your energy in any way now or in the future.  Again – beating the dead horse – if this higher power was so powerful they would not need human beings.  Plus, you are a single individual and these vows can affect other lifetimes you are living in a disastrous way.
  4. Do NOT refute your personal guides, guardians, angelics, or High Self.  Some rituals demand that you turn away from all other guidance to listen only to this “higher power” for directions and you might as well shoot yourself in your ass if you do that.  These beings are here for your highest and best good – which means they are going to try to direct you from doing something stupid or detrimental to you.  Think you want to try what this is like first?  Go turn on your kitchen range, get the burner nice and hot, and put your hand on it.  That same instinct that prevents you from doing this stupid act is the same one you are telling you don’t want in your life.  If this is truly what you want to do, then please don’t breed before you die.  Yes, that IS harsh, but come on.  Let’s not be overly stupid here.

So, in short, put yourself first and think a bit before you do anything that you don’t have a super clear idea of how it is going to impact this or another lifetime.

I have dealt with multiple cases recently that all involved a teenage male and a female who liked to dabble, who thought she knew what she was doing and who is, unfortunately and ultimately, being lied to by her own personal demons feeding off her own personal wounds and insecurities.

Each of the girls carry their own issues and pain, yet each lacked the compassion for others that she wished was given to herself.  Each seeks to obtain “something” from others and does not really care about the ramifications – short or long term.  Each is willful and ignorant.  These are sad situations yet each has been easily rectified with a little education and redirection of attention.

The work is not yet completed – each of the males will have a few more roads to travel until they return to their “normal” state of being, but the illusion has hopefully been eliminated and maybe a little wisdom imparted to learn to think for themselves.

And, by the way, I have seen cases like this with both sexes being the predator.  It is not just young girls who do the manipulating – there are males as well.  So it is appropriate to teach this to both males and females of all ages, because it is never too late to learn to protect yourself and to put yourself first ahead of another’s desires.

Mother Earth Shifts – November 2018

I am going to repeat information mentioned in the earlier Shift Series articles so you don’t have to go re-read them. The Earth Mother is going through, has been going through, and in the next few years will continue to go through Energetic Shifts which move the Earth Mother’s energy frequency up the energetic spectrum.  It is a slow process and these Shifts happen for her energetic vibration and benefit.  For the humans residing with and on the Earth Mother, it is generally not a fun experience as we are also energetically shifted along with her and things we have repressed take this energy shifting to demand attention.  Now.

Each person holds within them many things they have repressed and which are now demanding attention.  A small list of these include outmoded and detrimental ideas, detritus and demons, wounds and issues, etc.

Why, you ask?  These situations are resting within your energy system – complacent to a degree because you have repressed them, refused to deal with them, until the point your conscious mind even forgets about them.  But that does not mean they have disappeared – not at all!  When the energy of the Shifts begin to enter your personal energy system, the energy triggers these repressed and forgotten issues and they start demanding your attention.

Sometimes your emotional state becomes chaotic; you may experience mood swings or feeling irrational and may even start to pick fights with people for unconscious reasons.  You may begin to experience physical disturbances anywhere from aches and pains to illnesses that lay you flat on your back.  Or all of the above combined.

Some people experience poor sleeping habits or even the ability to sleep for longer than an hour during this time.  Many people experience nightmares during the Earth Mother Shifts and sometimes what they experience are a replay of issues they repressed or thought they had healed in the past.

The depth of the degree to which these repressed wounds will try to attract your attention is often the result of a combination of two things – how much you are willing to listen to your body tell you something is amiss and how significant your High Self feels your “wake up call” needs to be.

Most people make runs to the doctor when they start to feel ill, or they run to their bathroom cabinet to pull out the allergy medicines or other aches and pains medicines to cover up the issues.  Please don’t.  The reason you may be feeling this way could be determined easily by a decent meditation where you communicate with your Guides, your High Self, or just your physical body.

When you determine that this experience is not just a World of Man issue, but is in fact spiritual in nature, you have many opportunities for healing and growth.  Meditation can be key to assisting you with this, but remember – if the wound is so significant and painful that you have repressed it all this time, you may resist giving it the full attention it needs or you may only partially heal it instead of fully.  This will impact your healing progress and you will need to return to it again – possibly multiple times.  And if the wound is significant enough that your High Self is trying to get you to heal it, it only follows that you honor yourself and your High Self by getting it done properly the first time.

Everything happens for a reason.  This is a Spiritual Truth.  Nothing is a coincidence because all is within the Creator’s Divine plan for you and if something happens it is because YOU need it to happen.  Yet, many of the things that happen to you from the age of a young child on up have been very unpleasant and no one wants to think they have been hurt or traumatized for a “reason” or that they ‘deserved it’ or ‘needed it’.  It takes a tremendous amount of internal courage to face this Truth and it take more courage to face your wounds and issues to release them, instead of letting them control your life, sometimes in incredibly ugly ways.

Courage does not just involve facing these situations.  Courage is needed to tap into the internal strength inside of you and is needed to release the web of lies you have told yourself and everyone else over the course of your life about these wounds.

Courage is releasing the conditioning that your family and society dumped on you and courage is stepping away from how you were “told” to act when your wound happened and courage is now needed to approach this healing more than ever.

This shift will be beneficial for you if you approach the next six or so weeks with the attitude that this experience is going to help you to release that works against your highest and best good and will help you embrace a more light-filled, happier, in- alignment-with-your-H&B-Good you.

During the next six to eight weeks, the energy and energetic pressure is going to be very intense for the Third Chakra and the Sixth Chakra Centers.  During this planetary shift, energy is going to be focused on these two chakra Centers to assist with release and growth in that area of the human energy system.

The Third Chakra is the center of our Personal Will, our resolve, our fortitude.  When this chakra is compromised, we are easily swayed and unable to fully live our truth.  We are able to be manipulated by others and will believe others and put faith in other’s instead of trusting ourselves or honoring our personal experiences and listening to our personal truth.

The Sixth Chakra houses our Gifts and Abilities, but it is also the place where we Recognize Truth.  This is where our inherent ability to recognize intention behind other’s thoughts and actions is housed and when the Sixth Chakra is compromised we buy into others’ lies and destructive actions and we turn away from caring for ourselves and putting our highest and best good first.

(If you want to learn more about the chakras, I am teaching a class in 2019.)

These chakras will not be developing new sub-chakras during this particular Shift, but a great deal of energy will be focused on these two Chakra Centers for the following reasons:

a) to bring forward issues preventing the proper functioning of the chakra, (detrimental blockages, detrimental energies, issues, and wounds to heal, etc.)

b) to supply energy to activate inactive sub-chakras,

c) to supply energy to open the activated sub-chakras.

This IS a lot of to take in during just six weeks, so yes, lots of things can happen to you.

A note about sub-chakras:  Those of us who have been here for many years may find that the sub-chakras are not activating easily.  This is not uncommon.  We each have many issues and wounds create blockages which prevent our sub-chakras opening.  Many times in our healing path our sub-chakras will reach the activation point only to be pushed back to non-active status.  The key with this time frame is that the energy necessary to fully open our sub-chakras is available to assist us, so getting our sub-chakras activated now is vital.

(I can help with clearing your chakras and activating your sub-chakras if you find it challenging.  More information on that service is here. )

Below is a meditative exercise to help you heal your chakras.  Be sure to turn the volume up as it is a quiet recording.)   

The Earth Mother Planetary Shifts are a complex process and these blog articles are really inadequate to explaining all the details and nuances of these Shifts and their effect upon the Human Energy System.  Please feel free to use the form below to email me with any questions you may have or schedule an Intro session with me if you feel you need assistance but you don’t know where to start.

Blessings to you!